Carter Jean

Grief through business

Grief through business

Today has been another one of those hard grieving days. I had an appointment with a Maternal Fetal Medicine doctor to discuss some tests that came back as well as plans for future pregnancies. Not only did I have to relive every second of my […]

Part 2

Part 2

“Even when my strength is lost, I’ll praise you. Even when I have no song,I’ll praise you. Even when it’s hard to find the words, Louder then I’ll sing your praise.” It was all we could do, cry and pray. The doctor told us, since […]

Part 1

Part 1

The last day I was in this office, my biggest problem, was when I could eat again. I went in for a normal check and my 29 week glucose test. I always get nervous for those stupid tests. At 9:30, I drank the dreaded drink, […]

Our Story

Our Story

This week I will be sharing details of our story. I want to share this because it is beautiful and it is what God planned for us. We are not ashamed of the plan God has for us, even though it is not quite what […]

Huggable Pillow

Huggable Pillow

Man, you would have been the best big brother ❤️ Grieving mothers, this pillow has changed the grieving process for me. It is the exact weight of Carter and it make me feel like she’s in my arms every time I hold it. I sleep with […]

Guilt

Guilt

Guilt… my least favorite part of the grieving process. I constantly have to be on guard for thoughts that sneak into my mind on a daily basis. The devil has such a way to overcome my mind and my thoughts and change my outlook on […]

Fenway Partee

Fenway Partee

Fenway Partee…it hit me last night, how this journey to this loss has been planned and well thought out for a long time now. God has been significantly orchestrating my life from the beginning, but I’m now seeing clearly that this path towards loss started […]

Celebration Day

Celebration Day

Well, today is the day we celebrate my sweet baby girl’s life. My emotions are all over the place. I have moments of sheer joy about coming together to worship the Lord on this day and I have total sadness when I think of our […]

Celebration of Life

Celebration of Life

My sweet baby girl is in the presence of Jesus and I could not have a bigger peace about that. Please join us this Sunday at 3:00 for a celebration of her life and all that God has done through her. I can tell you […]

Unexplainable peace

Unexplainable peace

n the last two weeks, we have experienced unexplainable peace and sadness simultaneously. Never did I once think we would be here, early September with an empty closet and no baby. I never though I would say this, but I miss being pregnant so much. […]